Loved Ones: page 10; repentance

Coming awake with a yawn, I stared directly into Linda’s eyes. Linda shrugs, “I hate hearing people yawn on a hot afternoon,” she said, removing the hot towel from my forehead. “sorry, dear. Didn’t know you were here.” I replied. Her eyes said it all, she hated seeing me hurt, as did Princess: At a glance, I noticed Princess wasn’t there, a little confused, I made to stand. Linda glares at me, she had followed my gaze and knew of whom I sought. Acting on a whim, I hurriedly returned to my previous position. That was close, I have never seen Linda get really angry, so seeing her now, had sent shivers down my spine. “How are you feeling,” Linda asked, breaking my flow of thought. “Well, I was ok till you asked, now my whole body hurts”, I retort jokingly. “Well you did blank out, seems you hit the floor pretty hard…. Anyway what’s with Princess and you?, are you guy’s trying to hurt yourself or what? A while ago, I had to call Diamond to take Princess away, she refused to eat till you were awake, and now, though your injured, instead of concentrating on getting better, you opt to go and look for the first person on your mind which is Princess”, she asked, a puzzled look spread all over her face. Could what Law said be true, did Xparkle love Princess just because she was an asset. Seeing the seriousness on her face, I tried my best to listen but my head was pounding so hard, it was difficult catching my breath. All I could make out, was that Princess and Diamond were together. And for that, I was grateful. I knew Linda really cared for both of us and I didn’t know how hard it did be for her to let us go. “Thank you”, I whispered. Linda smirked, “Here are some drugs, and some painkillers”, totally ignoring my reply. After taking the drugs, I began feeling better. “Am sorry,” I voiced out, remembering I haven’t explained what happened the last time, she was here. “Sorry! Your sorry! Why is that! Why are you sorry, Xparkle, is it because I found out the truth or for the emotional wreck I did turn into if you had left, because that’s not being sorry, that’s just giving excuses.” She shouted, tears dripping down her face. I paused, speechless. Since birth, I always had this character which entails keeping silent whenever people started shouting. But right now, I couldn’t, I couldn’t stay silent, I needed her to know that it hurts, I needed her to open my eyes because they glued shut just as tears trickled down her cheeks, guess i couldn’t bear to see her in tears. I knew there wasn’t a right or good answer to the question, but I needed to give her an explanation, she deserved that much but an explanation was just as hard. Mustering courage, I replied “I don’t know but it hurts nonetheless. Am sorry for everything, am sorry for being inconsiderate about how you felt, am sorry for the excuses.” I paused, I could feel my eye’s swell with tears “I know I look like a player, and It did seem like I have an ulterior motive for the things I do but I cared for them regardless of how they view me, and made necessary decisions to safeguard them. I don’t expect you to understand, Linda but I loved them, and I do love you. Did you think I would be able to live with myself if something happened to them, or if something ever happens to you.” “So in other words, you won’t have told me the truth?. I do know deep down, its because you care too much that you make all this dire decisions. But must you make decisions for me, Assassin?”, Linda asked, her tone emphasising the last word. My eyes opened on the realisation of what her words meant. How could she know?. *Feeling pensive* forgotten memories came flooding back, I may have blanked out but my senses didn’t. *just as I blanked out, I heard voices. “he recognised the girl in the photo,” he said. His hands gripping my shirt tightly seconds before I hit the ground. A voice answered happily “does he, now. It would be fun torturing him” Another voice replied, “do not touch even a hair on the boy’s head, Kate.” The other girl hissed loudly in disappointment. “Huh! How does he know of Lady Jade?, could he be an assassin?, I must confess his footing were all wrong when I flung him plus he cares too much, nevertheless we shall keep an eye on him. But for now, he is my gift to father, so no one hurts him.” A low commanding voice said, I could make out that voice, it was Law speaking. “You won’t be leaving with Princess, would you, Law” another different voice, laden with emotions said. There was silence for a while And then I could hear Law apologising, profusely * So that emotion-laden voice was actually Linda’s. “you heard?” I asked, hoping for a reply, she just stared numbly at me. Sighing, I continued “I won’t have told you the truth at least not yet. I don’t know about you but I just do what’s right. About the assassin thing, # am not an assassin #, but the truth is I don’t know what I am, I just know am a guy with a two or three years memory loss.” “So what is right huh! for who, may i ask? For you or for me?, can you imagine the pain I would go through?. Since you have a gap in memory, that means you could actually be an assassin”, she said, her worried eyes set on me. “It really didn’t matter, he would soon be leaving”, she said to herself, smiling happily at the discomfort I was in. I was answering her questions to the best of my knowledge, but I could tell that something was wrong, the hurt in her eyes weren’t dissipating, “What is right for us. What do you want from me, Linda?, is it to always tell you the truth, to let you make decisions because I could do all that. But you must believe me am not an assassin, I can’t hurt you, you do know that, right.” I answered, suddenly realizing how foolish that answer was. Why would she believe I couldn’t hurt her, if I had left as planned I would have. I clinch the sheets on the bed, she was making me see the errors of my ways, making decisions for your loved ones wasn’t right, making decisions with loved ones was. ########################## Hey, guys. Thanks a lot. Do comment, follow and mention us. Hope page 10 was interesting…… Do stay in touch, page 11 to be uploaded soon. Xparkling options